It's been so long and so much has changed I don't even know where to begin

It's been so long and so much has changed I don't even know where to begin

It's been a while, hey?

So.... I guess it's been a while since I actually sat down and wrote anything here so here goes...

I still live in the middle of nowhere, where it's okay to hate based on who someone loves.  That still makes my heart break every fucking day.  I'm still having issues with the distance of my girlfriend and the severe lack of communication between us.  Oh and also, still listening to songs that strike nerves with every line.  As I'm posting it's Welcome Home by Tegan and Sara... No wait now it's When I Get Up by them...
Oh fuck me, I hate crying...

Sometimes I think it would've been better had my family moved to Calgary when I was 15 instead of stayin in MT. Probably wouldn't be broken hearted right now.

"I'm not unfaithful but I'll stray, when I get a little scared". The lyric I don't want to relate to, but I do from Tegan and Sara's song Back in Your Head

Not much new since the last time we talked. Still listening to a lot of sappy music and missing the one who possesses my heart. Just not crying as much anymore.

something I wrote a few months ago and felt I needed to post..

enough is too much

another report of another child
pushed of the roof of life
and i cry

another report of another child
dead in junior high
and i scream

ENOUGH!

this needs to fucking stop
before an entire generation expires
right in front of our eyes

because it's okay to bully
okay to belittle
okay to hate

when is the body count
gonna be enough
to make the world re-think

because the bullies aren't only the children
they have all learned these fears
from a world spewing hate

everything is scrutinized
and the cookie cutter must match up
because different means target

in this beautiful land
founded on freedom
from the persecution of others

but i am left to wonder
why
we now persecute ourselves